Everything now is leading up to graduation day. I can’t believe that its so close to being here already and I still have a ton of things to think about and do. I need to get a car. Without a car I wont be able to get back and forth to college. My mom keeps pressuring me to send an ap. into Iowa State University. But my grades have not been the best so i wont get in anyway. She just doesnt understand that I dont want to be a stupid vet. anymore! i keep telling her but its like she is wearing ear plugs!

On top of this i have prom to think about as well as my reception. Prom involves money as well…money that i need to be saving to use on that night. Yet the Juniors suck at raising money so i’ll have to pay a s*** ton of money just to bring my boyfriend. This will be interesting when I find out the exact amount.

Also i want to take a little of this section to rant about people in general. When you are going to do something, say for school or church, wouldnt you like to know at least a week ahead of schedule? Not one day ahead of schedule? Well this has been hapening lately and its quite frusterating to those who have limited funds and no ride to top that. I want to know about stuff way ahead of schedule!! It helps me coordinate appropriately!! GRR!!

anyway, i just thought i’d get that out before i yell about it to someone and be a real jerk about it. I think i’m okay now.

love always!     <3 Jordan

To start out…Dakota’s bike was stolen… we dont know who did it but it made me and my family really mad. Then, the same day this happened, Brandon got in a fight with 2 guys in his grade and they made fun of poor people and people that live in trailors…(the 2 guys that brandon was with live in trailors). I just dont get why people have to mess with us all the time…its makes me so mad!

Then on top of all this there is just a lot of stuff going on with getting college aps in and stuff and getting nagged by my parents about my graduation reception.

Prom is going to suck this year as well because i will pretty much not see any of my friends the whole time. I wont see Christine much because she will want to be around Sandy. Jasmine will want to be around me…but not around Sandy. And If Janae takes Gareck to prom…i’ll avoid them as well…so i think the only people i’ll be around at prom is Jasmine, Dakota, Brittany, and of course Anthony <3. But still…this is going to be…*cough* fun…

Ive just had too much time to think about all this crap. Christine and Sandy dont even sit with us at lunch anymore…why…i dont know. Sandy seems to be pissed off at me but i didnt do anything to her! Its not fair that she take her problems out on me…when i did nothing to her! I’m just tired of it.

Plus, i wont mention who…but i was talking to one of my friends and she told me that if …I…ruined…HER….prom that she would hate me FOREVER! I told her “look…its not just YOUR prom its MINE  too!” if she thinks that she is the only person in the world that matters than she better get over herself pretty quick. She is starting to act like someone else i know…and i dont like it.

anyway i guess i’m done ranting…for now…

TTYL   LOVE ALWAYS!! <3    jordan!

So we have started a game night on Friday nights at church and its steadily growing and really fun! We are currently playing Stargate which i had my reserves about but I’m getting into it quickly. I can get into the thoughts of someone in a military outlook pretty well amazingly.

So last night the story went, we are on a new mission and we went to the main city on the planet to get some information. Well…you dont get information for free around here so we went to the bar. A fracas happened out back where we had to dispose of some…not so cosher characters. Afterwards we got our information.

It was a pretty good night despite the loudness of other adults around and children running and screaming. ^.^ looking forward to next Friday!!

<3 always!!    Jordan!! //.^

I finally got to school on Wednesday!! I was so excited but in reality i was actually behind in most of my classes by that time. I couldn’t believe it! Behind on the second day? Wow! I got caught up and i was good for the week. 

No youth group made me sad Sunday night. After working 2 days in a row and one doing a double shift…i just wanted to kick back with my friends at church and relax. But that didn’t happen. It all worked out though since I got to see Anthony that night anyway instead.

The freak snow thing that we had yesterday made me a little mad that I was in Iowa. Random snow? Hm…i dislike…i dislike a lot. Snow was the last thing i really needed yesterday. 

On top of this all, my friend Gary is in the hospital because of his home health care people. He got a huge infection and now is in Allen hospital recovering. He says the service isn’t that great and the nurses don’t take good care of him as it is. But the infection is going down and he should be going home soon. The only thing holding him back is his white  blood cell count.

Ooh i got new shoes now!!! Now my sockies will not get wet when i walk outside!! And its not these shoes! i searched shoes on google and got these… i guess these are all the rage in Japan… good luck with these shoes! I isn’t tryin’ them!

My mom was sick with something at the same time that i was sick but she had something completely different. Dakota caught it and then gave it to brandon. I am dead set on not catching this stupid sickness. I’m tired of being sick so yea! not gonna happen!

So i start gym today and i’m not going to do well! WISH ME LUCK!!

<3 ALWAYS!!                JORDAN! //.^

The worst part of being sick is feeling good one minute then feeling like you are going to hurl the next moment. It sucks so bad and it makes me feel bad when someone had made me good food and i cant eat it because i’m worried that i’m going to throw it up afterwards anyway.

I’m happy that I got all of that sorted out and everything is okay on my end.

Graduation. Thats one word that I never thought I would be hearing so soon. It seems just like yesterday that I was just stepping into freshman year wide-eyed and amazed but now I’m a senior and being kicked out into the huge world. This is frightening to me somewhat. I know that there are people out there that will be helping me with the struggles ahead and there is a ton of people watching out for me but that doesn’t make me worry any less than i am right now.

I mean…I’m scared…I don’t even know what I want to do with my life yet. I know I’m going to go to a 2 year school to get a gen. education but then from there…I don’t know what I want to do! I’m so scared about money issues…and just trying to make it in the world. What if i dont see my friends anymore? What if i don’t make it?

straight from my heart….

<3 always! *Jordan* <3

Anyway let me get on with the story, I will start from where we met Nevets. We entered the cave to find bodies all over the floor in an otherwise harmless room. We found Nevets in one corner, there was a giant compass dial in the center of the floor, two statues on each side of the room, and one…seemingly impassable door in which Nevets was completely terrified of. As my party searched the statues for anything valuable, we decided to further examine the compass dial on the floor. Further examination found that it was movable so we figured out the sequence and entered the room.

(this was all from the previous sunday of playing)

now we are up to where Nevets started above. In this room was goblins. I entered first to speak peacefully to the goblins (i speak goblin) but of course they attacked first and asked questions later. As the party started in on their own individual battles I went for the Mage teacher. I wanted this over quick and simply so no one in my party got hurt but thats asking for too much. I readied my bow with fairy dust bowstring (makes things go boom!) but as i readied it, i was hit with a laughing spell and could not attack anything. The battle continued until almost everyone was immoblilized but Nevets and the Mage. Thank the lord for Nevets because without him we would not be here today to recall this story. He negotiated with him so we could leave peacefully into the next room.

The next room reveiled four drow and seemingly no way out. There was one door on the other side of the room but it seemed quite far away. There was two beings tied up on the other side of the room. The party began their struggle to destroy the main threat, a Dryder. I mainly looked for a way out. The drow were consciously watching the only door so i took out my bow, and took one shot through the opposite wall. The explosion hit and everyone ducked for cover.

As the debris cleared we had our way out, and the group had finished off the Dryder. (at this time i left for work! Sorry thats the end of what I saw!)

Blogging takes a lot off of my mind everyday i do it. It helps me say what normally i wouldnt be able to say or tell anyone else. I just want to say, Kudos to the man who invented blogging as well as the person that invented the journal and any device that lets teens and adults alike get their feelings off of their minds and onto some other device so not so much is on their minds at one time. I know it can be stressful to have so much going on at one instance but once one thing is done, you can take a breather and just relax about it for a while.

This blog entry is pretty pointless but i have twenty minutes left of school so i dont know what else i can do but type what is on my mind. Everyone check out http://jeweldawg15.wordpress.com this is one of my friend’s blogs and if you want to know who, just ask me. ^.^ She has chosen to type out her feelings and whats going on in her day to day life so be supportive and check it out.

<3 always! <3 Jordan <3

Dear lord, i praise you for what you have been doing in everyone’s lives and I accept that not everything is going to be perfect all the time but its what we do with the time you have given us that counts most. I pray you continue to open the hearts of the youth group members and help them to see your light that is shining in their otherwise dark corners. I pray you open my heart and mind so i can see what you require of my life and how i can show others to you lord.
in your name i pray! I love you lord!
Amen

<3 always! <3 Jordan! //.^